My first day!

I have never done psilocybin before (not definitely, at least) so I am going in completely blind and ignorant.

The directions suggest the truffles be taken with breakfast so I scraped out approximately 0.5g from the tab and washed them down with tea and porridge at 12.50pm. After around 50 minutes I figured I should take the remaining 0.5g (bringing it to the 1g suggested dose) and washed them down with water.

2:20pm: I can't tell if what I'm experiencing is a placebo effect. My eyes feel a bit heavy and spaced out (but I'm not sleepy) and I have a mild case of derealization - I don't feel anxious; instead kind of warm and cosy. I slept for 13 hours last night so I don't know if I'm groggy from over-sleeping. I caught myself making careless mistakes, for example saving a computer file as a .psd when I needed it as a .png.

I feel kind of.. dumb, away with the fairies and incapable of focus (I am literally struggling to find the right words to explain things) but when I pay attention to my mood and thoughts I don't feel attached to them - moreso recognizing how I felt this morning (anxious, fidgety and bitter) and letting it slip by. My legs felt light when I was walking up the stairs just after the second 0.5g dose but I don't think this is related to the initial 0.5g. There is a slight metal taste in my mouth and I have slight indigestion.

I was hoping to go for a walk today as a tiny celebration for the first dose, but the weather has other ideas... so looks like it'll be an indoor venture!

14:54: What the.. I just wrote out some HTML code I haven't used in years and somehow got it right on the first go. Not sure if connected, but a nice surprise!

17:04: I can notice a definite change in contentness - while I am definitely having anxious thoughts, it's a little easier to let them dissolve by simply acknowledging them. I don't feel restless at all, and that was one of the biggest problems I've been having 24/7 daily for over a year. I feel comfortable to fart around inside the house with no real aim, whereas beforehand I'd constantly have to be doing or planning something.

I don't know if this is an environmental factor though - it is very cold, wet and windy outside so I might just naturally feel more comfortable inside. One thing's for certain - I am exhausted, so all of the above could be from tiredness. My tongue does feel a little weird though, the taste similar to that after taking a sleeping pill.

1:18: The evening went as usual - cooked dinner, exercised a little, hung out in my room and sort of watched TV (as much as I could focus). I spoke to a friend who occasionally microdoses and he suggested that I take my next dose on an empty stomach to check the effects. Looking forward to the next one!