My first day!

I have never done psilocybin before (not definitely, at least) so I am going in completely blind and ignorant.

The directions suggest the truffles be taken with breakfast so I scraped out approximately 0.5g from the tab and washed them down with tea and porridge at 12.50pm. After around 50 minutes I figured I should take the remaining 0.5g (bringing it to the 1g suggested dose) and washed them down with water.

2:20pm: I can't tell if what I'm experiencing is a placebo effect. My eyes feel a bit heavy and spaced out (but I'm not sleepy) and I have a mild case of derealization - I don't feel anxious; instead kind of warm and cosy. I slept for 13 hours last night so I don't know if I'm groggy from over-sleeping. I caught myself making careless mistakes, for example saving a computer file as a .psd when I needed it as a .png.

I feel kind of.. dumb, away with the fairies and incapable of focus (I am literally struggling to find the right words to explain things) but when I pay attention to my mood and thoughts I don't feel attached to them - moreso recognizing how I felt this morning (anxious, fidgety and bitter) and letting it slip by. My legs felt light when I was walking up the stairs just after the second 0.5g dose but I don't think this is related to the initial 0.5g. There is a slight metal taste in my mouth and I have slight indigestion.

I was hoping to go for a walk today as a tiny celebration for the first dose, but the weather has other ideas... so looks like it'll be an indoor venture!

14:54: What the.. I just wrote out some HTML code I haven't used in years and somehow got it right on the first go. Not sure if connected, but a nice surprise!

17:04: I can notice a definite change in contentness - while I am definitely having anxious thoughts, it's a little easier to let them dissolve by simply acknowledging them. I don't feel restless at all, and that was one of the biggest problems I've been having 24/7 daily for over a year. I feel comfortable to fart around inside the house with no real aim, whereas beforehand I'd constantly have to be doing or planning something.

I don't know if this is an environmental factor though - it is very cold, wet and windy outside so I might just naturally feel more comfortable inside. One thing's for certain - I am exhausted, so all of the above could be from tiredness. My tongue does feel a little weird though, the taste similar to that after taking a sleeping pill.

1:18: The evening went as usual - cooked dinner, exercised a little, hung out in my room and sort of watched TV (as much as I could focus). I spoke to a friend who occasionally microdoses and he suggested that I take my next dose on an empty stomach to check the effects. Looking forward to the next one!

Hello!

After years hearing about the benefits of microdosing psilocybin, curiosity has gotten the better of me and I have decided to try it out for myself.

For the last few years, and particularly/extremely in the last few months, I have been having feelings of depression and emptiness brought on by anxious, ruminating thoughts that I can't shake. I have tried everything - clean eating, exercise, community involvement, hobbies, socializing, therapy, mindfulness, change of environment, meditation... nothing has worked and I can't find a doctor who will take me seriously, so I have decided to explore new avenues and ordered some truffles to see if this new approach will be of any benefit.

I ordered the 'Microdosing XP' combo from Wholecelium to start out - each blister containing 1g of truffles containing psilocybin.

I am a 32 year old female with a history of MDD, GAD and hypothyroidism, and currently being treated with an SSRI and Levothyroxine to combat the conditions. I don't drink often (<2 a month) and don't partake in any drugs (well, not until now, I guess!).

I am hoping to achieve more clarity in my mind, to understand myself and others better, to alter my perception of emotions, and to gain more focus and understanding.